2 weeks into JJ

hmmm.... jus suddenly came to blog coz i felt something... hmmm... JJ is fine up to now ba... has been enjoying the company of my frens in my class... chose wushu as my CCA... maybe taking up council with yilong... not confirmed yet... and external CCA... means i hav 3 cca if all is approved... i think one week will need 12 days for me le... one day wushu one day council one day DI blahblah... not sure lo... thinking of the need to make a public rally.... arghh... wonder hoe esther lau did it.... hmmm....

meaning i will hav less time for alot of things lor... less mapling le... cant go back nh so much le.... less time at home le... and less time to ROCK! oma... tts the worse... when i already hav so minimal amt of time for it le... this is not getting me anywhere...

maybe i am not suitable for it lo... looking at myself... sometimes i will still luff out loud... how this tt possible?? stop daydreaming... nothing is going to come out from my dream... so i lay on my bed... smiling to myself... falling asleep everyday liddat... i wan to feel wat the others is feeling... sense of comfort... noeing tt there is someone out there that cares... when i am not at home, i can find my second home... somewhere i can pour out all unhappiness... and no one will ever be like dallan... change the topic the moment i finish talking...

sometimes i jus get moody... ususally not when i am outside lo... see how hyped up i was at PC and nh today...

I WANNA RUN MY LIFE AWAY

my mouth will always seemed to be locked up... its not going to come out... coz i dun feel safe... and i am now not sure myself... allah...