A Merry Christmas Day...

phew... passed this day jus like tt... nothing much...

didnt sleep early yesterday night... then go PA was totally half-awake... didnt hav this kinda feeling for very long liaos... it something thats hits upon u so suddenly that u will wanna go wonder alot abt it... and this kinda thing needs both me and my fren to help myself... and i dun get it... kinda like a pail of cold water pouring over u... worse.. its not all at once... its dripping cold... maybe like ice shards... but its expected lahs... time... time is a factor... even myself is a factor... but this kinda thing... hmmm.... i believe it takes 2 hand to make a loud clap... so... ya... maybe i can observe more abt my fren... and learn... the first experience has told me to be more cautious... to a point tt... nvm...

ok... for today de prac... really felt my incapibility today... FAT is the word... lotsa thing cant do... cant do this cant do that... came to realise tt maybe this is why lao shi never let me dance in SYF and blahblah performances... hmmm.... i only hav myself to blame i think... 4 years in dance and all these crap... i think many ppl cant understand this feeling i am getting now... so dun bother to tag anything abt this para... god.. i sprained my big toe... BOTH! last sprain was in sec 3...

realized another thing today... i really cant stand AN ppl... dunno nvm... thanx for making my site meter jump with christmas joy... if u understand... continue reading bahs... i dun understand the rationale.... u r good at it, then share with everyone lahs... no use trying to hide it... wat is the definition of frens? someone who u know well and like, but is not related to me... irony huh? does it mean that they are not my frens coz i dunno them well? cant ppl nowadays treat frens with more trust and open-mindedness? maybe tt wat they call a facade... but i think its dumb and stupid and dumb... 4 years in dance i hav learnt to look on the brighter side... u all can be better than me or wat... so be it... since its an unchangeable fact that u guys never looked up to anyone before... so i dun expect anything... doubt ppl mentioned here reads this... maybe except one... but really lahs... so be it... i hav never said i am the best around... so i tot u guys shld change ur target or wat... nobody can understand how i feel... these are feelings and experiences tt u guys cant get... when i look into the PA mirror... i tell myself its a brand new day... maybe more positive things awaits me... so wat if i am the FAT-EST around? SO? cant be bothered...

one of the only few posts u can see me writing all these stuff... usually its not anywhere seenable... maybe some may be shocked tt these all happened today when i still look so happy... learn to understand wat u hav and appreciate it... i regretted...